Love Sucks- A Jahvie Fanfic Chapter 2
Jayy and I had said our goodbyes to Jeffree. After that we boarded our bus. I was going to try to talk to Jayy about his breakup with Zach but he retreated to his bunk. Not that I could blame him. He was still really upset about the events that happened earlier that day.
I sat down on the couch and sighed to myself. "Hey are you okay Dahvie?" A voice asked. I turned and saw Haley Rose standing in front of me. "Yeah I'm fine. Just a little worried about Jayy" I answered. "Why?" She asked as she sat down on the couch next to me."His boyfriend broke up with him earlier today and then he showed up at the concert with another guy. At least according to Jayy he did" I answered."Oh no; poor Jayy" Haley answered. "Yeah I know. He really loves him. I just wish I knew what I could do to make him feel better" I answered as I sighed again.
"I think just being there for him is the best thing that you can do right now" Haley answered with a smile. "Yeah that's true" I answered as I got up, I walked back to the bunk area and saw Jayy curled up in a ball, crying. "Jayy?" I asked. He turned and looked at me. His eyes were red and puffy. "Oh Jayy" I answered as I sat down on the edge of his bunk. He sniffled and looked at me. I sighed and pulled him into a tight hug. He clung to me tightly as I did. "Shh shhh it's going to be okay. I know it hurts now but it'll get easier" I answered.
He sniffled again and I ran my fingers through his hair. As I did that he gave me a weak smile."Dahvie?"Jayy asked as he pulled away from the hug."Yeah?" I answered. "Do you really think that someone else could love me?" He asked. As he asked that, I could feel my heart break. "Jayy you are an angel. Of course someone else could love you&" I answered as I gently kissed his head. He smiled and lay back down on the bunk. I got up to leave, but Jayy stopped me. "Dahvie, could you stay with me for a while?" He asked. I smiled. "Sure" I answered as I sat back down on his bunk again.
He inched closer to me and laid his head down on my lap. I smiled and stroked his hair gently. We sat there and talked for about an hour before Jayy drifted off to sleep. I sat there and watched him sleep. I continued to stoke his hair. He smiled weakly in his sleep. That made me smile.
An hour later.......
I woke up and looked around in my bunk area. Dahvie was still there. He had fallen asleep on his hand. I assumed that once I had fallen asleep he would've left. I gently shifted a little bit so that he would know that I was awake. He opened one eye and looked at me."Hey there" I answered with a smile."Hi. How'd you sleep?" Dahvie asked."Fine. What about you?"I asked. "Great" Dahvie answered. He looked so beautiful sitting there talking to me. Okay he looked more than beautiful. He looked drop-dead gorgeous. Why did I keep thinking about my friend like this? Was it just because I was on the rebound or was there something else going on here?
I was terrified of the answer to that question."What's the matter Jayy?" Dahvie asked, his voice breaking through my thoughts."Uh nothing" I answered."Are you sure?" He asked. He sounded genuinely concerned right now. I nodded. "Just stay here with me" I answered as I pulled him into my bunk with me. He smiled and laid his head on my shoulder. I reached up and played with his hair, intertwining my fingers around the green areas at the top of his head. I liked the feeling of his hair in between my fingers. It felt soft and pleasant.
I focused in on his lips. They looked soft and kissable. Oh dear god. I'm so fucked up right now. I think I wanted to kiss him. No, I know I wanted to kiss him. I leaned up and gently pressed my lips to his. For a split second it felt amazing. Then it clicked that this was wrong. I pulled away from him. "Oh god I'm sorry" I answered as I blushed a deep crimson color. "It's okay" He answered with a smile.
I watched as Dahvie got out of my bunk. "God I'm such an idiot" I answered as I buried my face in my hands.
Jayy kissed me. He actually kissed me. It was the most amazing thing that I had ever felt before. I had only dreamed about that happening. The truth of the matter was I was in love with Jayy. I had been for as long as I could remember. But then a thought struck me. I wondered if Jayy had kissed me because he actually liked me or just because he was on the rebound from Zach. I sighed and sat down on the couch. "Wow, heavy sigh A voice answered. I turned and saw Haley standing there in front of me again.
"Okay what's going on?" She asked. "What makes you think there is something going on?" I asked. She walked over and sat down next to me. "Stop answering my questions with questions, and tell me what's going on" She demanded. I sighed and looked at her."Jayy and I kissed" I answered. "Well it's about time something between you two happened" Haley answered. "Wait. you know how I feel about him?" I asked. "Dahvie everyone does. We were taking polls to see when you two would actually end up together" Haley answered I looked at her. "What?" I asked. "Okay I was joking about the last part but we really know how you feel about Jayy. The question is does Jayy know how you feel about him?" She asked. I stopped to think for a moment. "No I don't think he does" I answered.
"You better tell him. Before he finds someone else" Haley answered.I sighed knowing she was right.